It has been a whirl wind "almost" month. I have not written about it all because I have been just living day to day and working and helping friends and trying to enjoy the precious moments I have been given. I am more aware of the brevity of life and I am grateful every day for each breath I take and the ability to move around as I so choose and for my overall health. Here is the timeline of the last month:
I have so many emotions running around in my head and heart and it has been a challenge to organize them into something logical, verbal and into consumable information - gratitude to meltdown mode and everything in between. Some days are better than others and it is still amazing to me the things that will make me cross the line and spill over into a tear-filled fit.
- February 23rd, 2015 - Began the journey of exploring dreams, bringing in accountability and engaging with a life coach to bring them to life
- February 25th - Dad in hospital in Tampa with a 6.5 cm tumor in lungs and 1500 cc's of fluid removed
- February 26th - Met my new boss for the first time while still trying to process what the future may hold for my dad
- March 4th - Mom and Dad home WITH trailer in tow
- March 5th - Dad in hospital again - in Atlanta this time - tumor was 8 cm at only one week later with lesions on spine
- March 6th - Diagnosis received - Stage 4 Small Cell Neuro Endocrine Carcinoma. Milestone achieved - husband worked a full 5 days WHILE taking care of the kids and home while I spent time with my dad (talk about a roller coaster day!)
- March 7th - 9th - Chemo given to dad in the hospital and I stayed with him
- March 17th - Dad back in hospital with chest pains dude and I spend the night
I have so many emotions running around in my head and heart and it has been a challenge to organize them into something logical, verbal and into consumable information - gratitude to meltdown mode and everything in between. Some days are better than others and it is still amazing to me the things that will make me cross the line and spill over into a tear-filled fit.
- Hearing my dad pray while in the hospital bed and singing to God
- Him wanting to live and bring his boys back together.
- Laughing about wanting a real Bday party this year!
- Milestones with Adam at work for 5 days
- Taking care of kids and family responsibilities
- Hearing my son pray for my dad to encourage him and ask for healing - WOW!
- Watching a father/daughter dance at a wedding and being grateful that my husband is still alive and may be able to do this one day - God willing of course.
- Deploying a friend's website
- Feeling loved and lonely all at the same time
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