Sunday March 30, 2014. A day that will be forever marked in my memory by a trial that changed my world. It was a day filled with life altering, mind crushing, crazy insanity where I had to force myself to find a way to recount my blessings, find a way to move forward and to establish a new "normal" in my already un-normal life.
On that day, my husband had a stroke. That morning initiated a chain of events that were uncertain, frustrating, scary and yet God was still so faithful and amazing. Because no matter what happens, I truly believe that God IS good, ALL the time. I have already seen so many miracles in our current situation and God has opened doors, protected us and placed us in the center of His will. And my husband is doing splendidly and I am ever so thankful.
On that day, my husband had a stroke. That morning initiated a chain of events that were uncertain, frustrating, scary and yet God was still so faithful and amazing. Because no matter what happens, I truly believe that God IS good, ALL the time. I have already seen so many miracles in our current situation and God has opened doors, protected us and placed us in the center of His will. And my husband is doing splendidly and I am ever so thankful.
But today was Good Friday, an eventful day in a Christians life and it has been a particularly hard day for me. Maybe it was because it rained all afternoon. Or that I worked today despite it being a holiday because I am so behind in light of recent life events. Or maybe just the reality that I am now a wife, mommy and care giver and well...maybe I am just tired. But more than all that I am wrestling with the fact that none of this even comes close to what Jesus, my Lord and Savior, experienced for me Good Friday so many years ago. That was a day that marked the memories of so many Christians and rocked their world in a far greater way than my little world has known.
So I find myself struggling today - caught between praising God for all the good things and the feeling of sheer exhaustive, stressed out state of getting everything done and frankly wanting my old life back - the one before March 30th.
But His plan is different. His will is perfect. He is God. I am not. He is my strength. Because even though "it may feel like Friday night, I'm here to tell you Sunday's on the way!"
So I may live in a life that is altered, but so does everyone else. Maybe now I will be more aware of the needs of others as they go through their storms of life. Maybe I will use this experience to understand even more that this life is not my home. Or maybe I will be more of a blessing to someone else because of what God is bringing my family through right now.
But His plan is different. His will is perfect. He is God. I am not. He is my strength. Because even though "it may feel like Friday night, I'm here to tell you Sunday's on the way!"
So I may live in a life that is altered, but so does everyone else. Maybe now I will be more aware of the needs of others as they go through their storms of life. Maybe I will use this experience to understand even more that this life is not my home. Or maybe I will be more of a blessing to someone else because of what God is bringing my family through right now.
I don't have all the answers and some days it will feel like Friday night, but I know that just around the corner, the light is shining, the tomb is empty and we will overcome, we will prevail and God will be glorified...even on days like today.
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